I get aroused by the thought of death. Murder specifically.
I killed some woman in skyrim and got so aroused I jacked myself off.
I then begun worrying about whether or not I’d do this in real life, so I took a 40kg weight and acted as if I was beating up my ex gf with it. I didn’t feel guilt or remorse.
I’d never do any of this in real life, because of the massive amounts of pain I would cause to other people, but the lack of restraint I have to approaching thoughts like these worries me.