I want my ex girlfriend to know, that I wish I had kids with her. I wish that all tree of the kids you had were mine. Your husband is a lucky man to get to have sec with you, and to have kids with you. I wish you were the mother of my children. I’m sorry I screwed everything up repeatedly for years.
I’m sorry I screwed up in 2002. You were so young, but we could have made it. It would have been amazing.
I’m sorry I didn’t try harder in 2003. I wish I had told you how much I loved you. Honestly, I wish we had kids together back then, even though we were both so young. It would have been so great
I’m sorry I disappeared from 2004 to 2008 and was nowhere to be found. That’s when I became an alcoholic
I’m sorry I messed everything up that time we saw each other in 2009. I know I mess everything up. I’m sorry I disappeared again in 2010
I’m sorry I wasn’t there for you in 2011, because I was dealing with my own failures. I didn’t tell you because I was ashamed.
I’m sorry I wasn’t happier for you in 2012 when you told me you were pregnant with your husband. I was so jealous I couldn’t stand it. When you called to tell me you were pregnant, I cried in my truck alone
I’m sorry I tried to kill myself in 2013 and never talked to you or told you about it.
I’m sorry I didn’t try to meet up with you in 2014 like we had talked about. I know I’m my heart that was the last real window. If we had gotten together and I had gotten you pregnant then, I’d be so happy right now.
I’m Sorry I was such an a****** in 2015 and that I wasn’t happier about your second baby born in December. I just couldn’t control my desires
I’m sorry I didn’t say more when I saw you in 2016. I aches inside. I throbbed. When I hugged you, I had feelings and desires that I cannot explain. I’m so sorry.
I’m sorry for misleading you in 2017. I really never did stop being in love with you, and I never will. but I knew I couldn’t wreck a Home and trigger a divorce, and put those kids at risk. I’m sorry I couldn’t man up.
I’m sorry for all of 2018, and for being so distant. It was just too painful. I’m still struggling with alcoholism and aim afraid it’s going to take me down. I wish I had you with me
I wish I wasn’t so alone.