I want terrible things to happen in my life. Like bad bad things. I heard that a girl i knew dad died and i just got envious before anything because i yearn for bad things like that to happen in mt life.
I want tragedy to strike, i really want to get cancer or to lose my leg or to go blind and for people in my life to die and the more traumatic it is the better. I get literally envious of people where these bad things happen and its driving me mental bcuz each time my first thought is ‘god i wish that were me’ or ‘god when will that happen to me?’ I fantasize complex traumatic scenarios with glee and hope that the law of attraction will finally f****** give it to me its super frustrating and fucked up and i dont know why i want these things to happen
