I wish I could have a chance with you, however, if I did meet you it would most certainly be infidelity and we would regret it. I can just imagine meeting you at that airport and running into your arms and you picking me up and twirling me around and then whisking me off to your house for an afternoon just for us with no care in the world other than our intimate and passionate moments’ together. Oh, how I yearn for you to kiss me intensely and undress me as we wrap our bodies together. I enjoyed our random and real chats over the years from across the oceans and although we may not be compatible on so many levels, I somehow feel we were meant to connect. I loved your emails to me and yet I deleted them, what treasures it would have been right now. The stories of your adventures. The photos of your travels. I loved your outward personality and how you made me feel calm at the most stressing of times in my life over the years. You got me to take better care of my health despite the urging from my own family. You reassured me that it is all ok and I will be fine with my husband from afar. I blocked you and when I friended you again two years later, you gladly accepted. I tried to express my affection towards you and you said it’s fine and now I can’t unfriend you after all these years. Your non-response of lately hurt my soul so much over this past week, it felt like my imaginary world was falling apart. I feel like I am clung to you like a koala bear to a tree. This obsession must stop. This yearning to be with you and to grab your attention is a dilemma. Will we ever meet up in the future as I imagined. Will, we ever meet for that champagne tasting in one of the most beautiful parts of the Cape. Will, we ever meet for that cup of fine Ceylon tea at a tea house in Colombo. My dearest mystery friend, I am sorry for pushing you away with my over-the-top antics and need for your attention. I will miss you for as long as I live and I will always wonder what it would be with you. Who knows that the reason we are apart is to protect each other from what we know could hurt us. I hope you find someone that extra special to spend the rest of your life with. That second slice of wedding cake is mine…