i’m married .. but I can’t stop thinking about my ex. my relationship with my husband isnt great right now, we keep fighting and we stopped having s**. my husband makes me feel kinda low and he doesn’t make me feel beautiful or wanted.. so I go back to the times I was with my ex. I felt safe around him and I loved how he made me feel .. I feel guilty for thinking about him but I can’t help it. my thoughts keep going back to the times we would have s** and the intimacy we shared .. i’d think about the times i’d be cuddled up with him and how much I missed being touch so softly but f*** me so roughly. running his fingers through my hair and then the clumps of my hair he’d have his fists when he fucked me back the back. I don’t think it’s just s** i’m been missing I think it the intimacy associated with the s** I use to have with him .. I want it so badly but I know I can’t go there. is it the risky part of thinking about this that’s exciting me? knowing I want it but I can’t have it.