I have constant and vivid fantasies of committing brutal murder. Not of anybody in particular I just have the desire to kill somebody or somebody’s.i also struggle daily with suicidal and self mutilation desires and not a day goes by when I dont consider slitting my wrists with my favorite pocket knife sometimes I start and stop halfway. Back to the homicidal desires I am amazed I haven’t acted on them so far. Sometimes I fantasize extensively of the kill.the cold of their skin the blankness of their eyes the reveal of who they really are.i am confessing because I have wanted to tell someone anyone about this for a long time. I just needed to get this off my chest