didn’t go to support group today because I have no money to afford the fair to commute and no money for lunch and they expect us to give over $5 each every week for payment of the room in the community hall which I think its lousy of them and they want raffle tickets sold and I am not doing any of that anymore for anyone. I need a younger better group that meet in the afternoon. somehow I wish I could set my own group up but we have no location and I am not paying out fees on a place. I need to be around vibrant people who want to complain and b**** about others who fucked up their lives and have no guilt about what we say and spill the beans on how miserable we really feel and why. let them hear all the dirty facts and sad sack hell that goes on in the mind. doctors won’t let you complain any more so we need somewhere to go everyone whines and billows at me about their problems and some bastards are gonna hear mind and I prefer a local group face to face rather than online hungouts.