I have wanted to give up control to a man for a while now. I have wanted to do exactly what he tells me to in the bed room. I was to be a sub. I also want to be treated with compassion. I’ve dreamed about kneeling in front of a man, waiting for him to tell me what he wants because I think it’s super hot. The problem is I’m 17 about to be 18, and I’ve never kissed a guy, I feel I won’t be good enough for that type of relationship.