Hundreds of miles apart, I still daydream about us finally finding ourselves face-to-face, skin-to-skin, jagged breath one in the same. You’re as close as I’ve come to perfection since… I was engaged many many years ago. I loved him with everything I was. I felt like I was a part of everything that he was, like we had the brightest future. I feel that with you, and I want so badly to have that with you. I took a chance at happiness with another since I had no idea how you felt too and now I’m wallowing in regret, barely able to keep myself happy because he can’t do that for me. He’s quite frankly a toxic human being and I want so badly for him to get better for himself and for his future, but I feel I cannot bring that to him. I want to wake up and fall asleep with you, laugh with you, play games together, put a smile on your face. I finally want happiness for another more than myself again, that’s how I know I’ve found it.