I want to kiss him. I want to. A part of me wants to feel loved like we used to love. I don’t have feelings for him anymore. i haven’t had them for a while. But god, I want to kiss him. It disgusts me that he had hands on another girl, another girl that wasn’t me. It used to be only me. Only me. Just me. me and him. In love. Just us. But it isn’t just us anymore, it’s friendship now. Just friends. But god, I want to kiss him. I want to be in his arms again. I want it so bad. it’s just habit, I know it’s just habit. I’ve never been the type of girl to hook up, never. But with him I feel safe, I can trust him. God. I want to kiss him again. but it’s over. It’s all over. And I can’t. I can’t do that to myself or him. I can’t do that to our friendship. It would mess everything up. F***.
