As a plus size woman I really wish I was seen as beautiful. I feel it doesn’t matter how much I dress up, that I’m just seen as ugly. I know I need to lose weight and I want to, but it’s so hard when you are always thinking that no matter what… you’re ugly. I could be skinny and still be just ugly. I just want to be admired just as much as I admire my lovers… I just want to feel wanted and attractive. Why can’t I have that?