Hey beautiful, I just want to apologize for my confession about having a crush on you going public beyond what it was meant too. We are both adults at an age where mind games are a waste of time and counter productive to building a healthy relationship. We met 6 weeks ago today, so If this finds you, please know iIt was never my intention to play games with you, embarass you or hurt your heart. Honestly, I was just venting about all these feelings awakened by a beautiful woman like you, that I have not felt in ten years since I broke off my last engagement due to being cheated on. Closed off my heart to love for years, and here you come with your beautiful blonde locks, soulful blue eyes and red dress like a warm summer breeze that thaws out this frozen heart of mine. Call me delusional, believe whatever you want but it is a rare day that emotions overwhelm me or someone captures a piece of my heart the way you did so quickly. Like you, I may meet a lot of people but I save myself and the more intimate parts of my life for someone special and worthy of my time, cause I know I am a catch like you: single, sober, drug/disease free, stable, funny, creative, like to fish, camp, hike, read, creative, smell like Armani Aqua or Allure by Chanel, loyal, spiritual, bit of a charming smartass who loves the beach, cooking for small dinner parties and the company of good friends. Look, I would have just asked you out if I had your number but it was a 75/25 not in my favor gamble that you would even say yes. Especially with your head buried in your phone and considering the professional circumstances I was doing my best to be respectul of you at the time. In my defense, please keep in mind I was harmlessly flirting with you long before you came to town to work for our mutual aquaintance. Please forgive me if I overstepped your boundries, I really did not mean any harm. In fact, at this point in time, I am surrendering to the reality that you are not choosing to get to know me, correspond or spend time with me, and it will be our demise. Showing you love and support was such a sweet pleasure I will always treasure. Even without any reciprocity. Today will be the last time, I post anything about the feelings you inspired in me. You became my muse, like Dante who wrote about Beatrice in La Divina Commedia. Really could not help but get caught up by the flow of the current of emotions you inspired in me like a raging sea. Although I am not a man, which further reduces my odds of being able to love you, I will leave you with song dedications to remember me by: No Ordinary Love by Sade and Let Me Love You by Mario. Sums up everything I will never get a chance to say to you over dinner and a bottle of wine with your sweet kisses in the moonlight. You gave me hope that is now sadly fading like starlight in the sunrise. So much for having ‘small wins’ with you. Goodbye mi amor, xo