sorry you haven’t learned to love the little things in life. maybe you need to learn in the end that’s all that matters, the rest is just a rat race anyway. maybe you’re just always a glass is half empty person for whatever reason. it’s an attitude. you’ll be what you reap. religion is for people who are not happy with this dog eat world, all the rituals and mystery give us somewhere special to be, we get our excitement from the symbols the world throws at us as we love the world in ecstasy like a beautiful pure o*****, knowing that that goat that wouldn’t let you leave, that deer that followed you everywhere was reassuring you in what you learned and studied and believed and so he blessed you with a touched life, one where you’re never alone, and even in the littlest ways he’ll show you his sense of humor or bless you privy to a miracle that skeptical secular people won’t understand because they don’t understand he’s not bound by the physics of this human world—he’ll let you in. you should be weary of wishing you could be so pure, it’s a dark, torturous journey that leaves you alone because so few people choose the path. it’s a journey you can’t reverse so learn to be happy with what you have or be ready for a mind twisting dark journey that will end in pure bliss only if you stick by it, after much, much suffering. peace be with you.