you wouldn’t have been given a conscience if you were just meant to rot and die. you’ve always cared. i’m sure it’s tiring. i know how it feels to feel guilt because you’ve done something to someone directly or indirectly, i couldn’t imagine. if you give up or something happens to you, i for one, am going to cry and be sad for a very long time. fine—i hate you, if that makes you feel better. use the excuse that everyone hates you to leave then.