• 2 months ago
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Dear Imogen Cortis-Jones

Ive come 2nd globally on this idea to make FS care about social causes. The worst thing happened you know. Im in a team of 3. Every meeting is all men. The defaulted team lead from America overrode points we agreed to to really bring the moral issues to the forefront.

I knoe you dont care. If we were still in eachothers lives we would have gone out to celebrate. I do hope yoi are going ok. For a great while it was like I completely forgot you existed.

Maybe it was watching the Umbrella Academy and Ellen Page, her character falling in love with a older woman. Or maybe its because i actually gave a dating app a shot. No matter what my mind circles back. I want to move on I do. I want to grow. Yet I ruminate. I think back. Im still too scared to delete our photos together. I remember the fun – watching the Orangutans together. The fireworks together. I have the videos from then and its as though nothing had changed.

But everything has. I lost my closest friend and confidant. The one thing I was the most afraid of when we progressed into more than friends. Thats long gone.

Sometimes I meet people, or bump into people. And they remind me of you. Darling, moments like that i feel so close to you. So close yet so far.

This void in me. Its not being filled. I stand by it you know that I’m a demisexual. That emotional bond that led me to want to be with you. Thats not something I can feel with others. Maybe I just mistrust most people now.

What exactly is love anyway. Its so fickle. Your heart beats, its overjoyed and overflows with all these feelings. After its just a dark hole. Nothing can satiate what has been taken.

Simply Confess