I want a baby so bad…. my boyfriend doesn’t want anything like that anytime soon. But every day I dream about having kids. We don’t use condoms or BC, and I haven’t gotten pregnant yet. I’ve thought about asking other men if they want to have s** with me just to see if I can get pregnant at all. I’m desperate for a baby. I want to feel a baby grow inside me and I want to hold my stomach and feel them kick and move around. I want to experience childbirth and I want to hold a baby in my arms and feel that bond… I want it more than anything else in the whole world. I want it so so so bad. I can’t think of anything else I want to do with my life. Sometimes I just cry myself to sleep, yearning for it and scaring myself, telling myself I’m broken and I can’t ever have kids…. It’s eating me inside out.