I re-contacted my unrequited love interest today. I want to be close to him again. Contact between us stopped about two months ago, and today I found a message he wrote yesterday, in which he told me he thought of it as a goodbye. Helplessly, I wrote him a long apology letter, in which I actually told him it was my fault contact stopped (which we both know) and how I want to go back to how things were. I’m quite scared of his reaction and hope everything goes well.
I’m still too afraid to confess, since he always told me I was a very good friend, and that makes me sure he’s never going to think about me another way. We haven’t even met in person so it’s understandable but it still hurts. I am just afraid my feelings are going to fade someday. I wanted to be with him and even thought of following him to his hometown without him knowing, just to be able to see him. He is a very gentle and emotional person, and I don’t want to ruin our friendship by confessing.
