I’m in such much pain, I feel I have no chance to be a big famous actress, I’m afraid I will never be able to escape from this s***** European country. I live in a small village and there are no acting classes around me, I would go if there would be any…I would get involved in my highschool activities if I would have a decent house but my house is horrible I don’t even have a bathroom. We are not poor but although the money aren’t enough for renewing the house, I am afraid that I would have new friends from the city I go to highschool and they’d want to come at my house. I don’t get close to people because I don’t want them to find the real myself inside. I’m exhausted of lying and hiding and I get closed off. Everything I do is to cry and look online for castings online(like to put a video of myself and someone to choose me, I know that’s not possible ) because it’s impossible to go like in New York and there to be a possibility to lose the audition. I wished I was born in USA or UK because there I could have been an actress even now that I’m a teenager(15) not after College. I want to go to LAMDA in England but I don’t know how am I going to pass the audition with no experience. I’m tired and sick and yeah that’s it.Sorry for my english