I’m 18 year old (wrote 17 first – then remembered that I turned 18 last month, still not used to it).
There is a girl. I know her from 5-6 years now and she’s like my best buddy. I can look into her eyes and read her mind. We tell each other everything…we share every secret and the chemistry between us is just crazy…
She’s a creative person. Drawings, poetry, and all… I’m a web designer… I love her and I know that she loves me but I don’t wanna risk this friendship…
But the problem is not about our relationship…
The way we met was weird. The odds of me knowing her was really low and me becoming this close to her were close to none….but it all happened… We are two close friends..
She has thyroid. Hyper or hypo, not sure… the one which is less risky…
About a week ago she was thinking to buy “The Fault in Our Stars” book…so just to surprise her I bought it for her. It’s a book about two teens with cancer falling in love.
It arrived yesterday and I read the entire book in a single sitting…and then I talked to her and said that I’d give her book the next day to read and keep.
She was not sure about telling me but at the end she told me that she was having periods from over 20 days and feeling a lot of pain and weakness. I told her to consult a doctor.
I went on Amazon and bought “Okay? Okay.” locket to surprise her (still waiting for it)… That locket is from that book.
I gave her the book this morning and she told me that was going to a doctor. I wished her good luck and told that it’d all fine.
I talked to her after a couple of hours and she told me that the doctor give her a medicine and it’s a month long course. It was on WhatsApp and I felt something off and asked her what was wrong…. I can feel if something is wrong just by reading her messages… I know how she writes when she’s sad or upset…. She said nothing and went offline.
Later tonight (around 4 hours ago) I asked her if she was feeling better. She replied that she’s fine and told me that she has PCOD/PCOS.
What’s PCOD/PCOS?
Just Google it and you’ll know.
She eats a lot of junk food, hates to exercise, and this freakin’ behavior of can cause her cancer…and I don’t what that story of that book to come true… I swear to God, it’s just killing me inside right now… I can’t see her in pain and I can surely can’t see her with cancer…
Isn’t it b******* that there’s a random girl that I meet and I have this amazing chemistry…and my best friend…she’s the one going thru all the f*****’ stuff…
I just wanna scream the f*** out and damn, I just don’t wanna feel this way… I just wanna see her happy and with me….
There’s a line in that book: “The world is not a wish-granting factory.”
Is this is a f*****’ game? I read the book and a lot of this coming true from it…
I just wanna write “I’m kidding and prank’d ya”….but unfortunately, this all is true…if I could do that…