I’ve felt down for the past few months. I find my self to be sad almost everyday. A darkness has fallen above my life. I’ve lost ten pounds in two months. I’ve lost my appetite. I eat one or two meals a day. My life seems to be getting worse. I don’t know what to do. I told some people of how I feel. They said to give it time and things will get better. But everything is still the same. I think of killing myself everyday. But I could never go through with something like that. I just don’t want to exist right now. I cry myself to sleep everyday and pray, pray that tomorrow will be my day. But nope. Everything just seems so dark and gloomy. Why should I continue? I definitely don’t want to go to school but I have to. I liked this girl. She’s so beautiful when I see her I smile. She started talking to me! My mind went wild ” dies she like me”, ” Does she want to go out with me?”. But she only talked to me because she wanted to know more about my friend. My friend didn’t like her! Which was okay. Even after she kept talking to me! But then this guy asked to homecoming. And she likes this guy. Rejection doesn’t kill, expectations does. She would have me the happiest guy in the world. But here I am bleeding thinking if life is really worth it. No I be helps me. I tried talking to someone, that didn’t help. Now I’m thinking of running away. I don’t know what to do. God seems to not care. I wish someone would help me. SSM 1798
