I’m thinking of breaking it off with my girlfriend to have flings with other people. I don’t know if it’s real love I need. I feel humiliated, guilty, unloved. I feel like she is controlling, abusive, manipulative. I never have s***** thoughts about her anymore, they’re always about other girls and guys. (I’m bi). I want to let her go and then start flirting with all these other people who I know for a fact have interests in me as well. I’m a terrible person. I know I still love her, but I can’t tell if it’s because I love her as my best friend, or my girlfriend anymore. I’m worried what will I become if I do or don’t follow up with this desire. I’ll be guilty if I do, but I’ll be unhappy if I stay. Don’t even suggest talking it out with her because “talking it out” is some imaginary work of art according to my girlfriend. Her exact words were “You think talking about things will fix them or something, but it doesn’t”. Lack of communication between us, but trust me. I’ve tried to talk to her countless times before and yet….I think I’ll just run away.