You know what? I really really like this guy. And it’s really weird because he’s not particularly good-looking, he’s many years older than me (I’m 19). He’s got a kid, and we have almost absolutely nothing in common, I’m almost a kid myself! We conflict religiously (i. e. I’m super in love with mine, he is the opposite to all), and we have varying levels of mental stability… But I can’t help it. I love talking to him, and I get a nervous and giddy when I have to text him or something for work. It’s never going to go anywhere. He probably has no idea. But I like him a lot. I’ve never really felt this … this much before, and I don’t get it.
Why do I even …??? I don’t get that part either. I just…don’t know why. But I know it’s there. Why am I attracted to him? BUT I AM. So so much.