I hate my life. I know this probably sounds just like the beginning to half of the posts on here. But I really f****** do.

I am 21 years old with no job, no money, no friends, no car, no license, and nothing I can do about it. I come from a poor family. But unfortunately we’re not “poor enough” for assistance of any kind. So I couldn’t afford to go to college without taking out student loans, which I didn’t want to do because I would have no way to pay them back.

Although even if I did take out loans for school, I would have no way to get there. Because as I’ve said, I have no license and no car. I can’t afford a car. My parents can’t afford to get me one. My family only has one car & my dad needs it for work. Plus he can’t afford to put extra gas in it, and neither can I. I have no reliable person to give me rides to school, and even if I did, I have no gas money for them. Of course there’s scholarships, but I don’t qualify for any significant amounts of scholarship money that I know of. You need good grades, good SATs, and community involvement for most of them. I am also white so I am obviously not eligable for any scholarships based on race. Not that I think affirmative action is a bad thing. I fully support it. It just doesn’t help me is all. And of course, my family is poor but again, not “poor enough” for me to qualify for any grants.

I have no money for school, a car, or gas because I have no job. I might be able to get a job..But it doesn’t help when you have no experience, no education, no car, no ride, and no gas money. I absolutely refuse to take public transportation. I live in a bad area. I would be afraid to wait a bus stop, ride the bus, and walk to work from a bus stop.

I have no reliable rides because the rest of my family is not local, and I have no friends. I have no friends because I am apparently an inconvenience to hang out with since I have no money and no ride. They all stopped hanging out with me after high school.

This is the story of my life. It s**** a**.