I miss my best friend so much. I wish that I could ever see her again but I can’t. I ruined things. Now I don’t know how to live without her. I don’t even want to. In my darkest hours she was the only thought that kept me alive. No amount of boyfriends, no amount of family. It was her. I’m so sorry, E. I am so f****** sorry. And I’m sorry I can’t even turn around and look back. I hate every moment that you aren’t talking to me.
