So i found out that my old best friend is now dating my ex-boyfriend. Now i would be okay with it if it was just a guy i had a fling with but this guy was my first love, he was with me when my dad died and i have never loved someone as much him.
She knows how much he means to me and how i still have so much love for him, yet she started dating him and is rubbing it in my face.
It hurts so much, i don’t feel like i could be happy as long as they are together.
It scares me but sometimes i fantasize about torturing her, like slowly braking her bones and cutting of her fingers one by one. I just want to cut her skin and make her feel the pain that she’s making me feel. Now don’t get me wrong i could never hurt someone like that but i like to fantasize about it.
Is that weird ? Because it sure makes me feel weird..