I have a problem, i fucked up many aspect of my life battling substance abuse, but i overcame it and now i feel like that hole of pain is reopening, i had my year 12 formal on the other night and instead of going back to a hotel with everyone else, i left them all and went to a bar to drink ( i was feeling very unhappy and i do not know why) i feel like im slipping into another substance battle, i need help but im scared to tell anyone as i lost alot of friends dealing with my pot addiction. i have so much emotional baggage and it gets worse, all i have been doing is getting wasted (either alcohol or Ecstasy) and last weekend i ended up kissing my best friend who has a complicated relationship with my bestfriend (she made the first move on me). I don’t know what to do, i cant fight the emotions anymore and im slowly deteriorating emotionally. I’ve even considered turning to religion to find an end to this pain. Whats the point anymore, all i want is to end this pain.