God answers people in all sorts of ways.
I think god gives you a sign and it is up to you to follow it. It is up to you to be open to his guidance.
Gods signs are like the winds in our sails, or a current in a river. He gives direction, he tries to push you toward safety and his path for you.
Today god have me a sign to avoid falling for my ex again. I was given a gift initially, which I’m sure was meant by god to help me get over my e more easily. But I took advantage of the gift and I went against what I’m sure was gods intended path.. And I began to get attached to my ex again.
Now I am ripped away with nothing in the blink of am eye. I understand the sign now.
I understand that I have a wonderful opportunity to move on and be happy, and I was almost so foolish to not take it. I was almost selfish. I won’t be.
I will try my best to be a good person and study hard on how to better myself. I will learn as much integrity, patience, compassion, and love as I can. I will learn ways to construct myself that are not harmful to others. I will learn fr the mistakes of others.
I will sacrifice my mental and emotional well being for this.
It is hard for me and I stay awake some nights crying wishing that I could lie or pull se strings to take the easy way out. I spiral emotionally until there’s nothig left of me and I feel empty, I feel in pain. But I do it because I want to be good.
And being good has meant so much heartache, pain, loneliness and hopelessness for me. Being good has had few benefits but the ones I’ve had are *very* good, and they benefit my spirit.
I will try my best to be better.
Thank god for answering my prayers so far. He has.