A girl sat next to me on the bus* the other day. She sat there for the duration of the trip engrossed in her cell phone. We had nothing to do with each

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A girl sat next to me on the bus* the other day. She sat there for the duration of the trip engrossed in her cell phone. We had nothing to do with each other. But this stranger was literally the closest any other human being has been to me in years. Just when I had gotten comfortably dead inside, this woman broke my tranquility and reminded me how much I long for any level of human contact. Even if it is someone completely indifferent to my existence but is willing to sit next to me on a crowded bus.

*By way of explanation, on the bus most people will choose to stand rather than sit next to me. When they do, they sit on the edge of the seat and move to an empty seat or get off the bus as soon as possible. This is also true of any public or private space I enter. Am I some kind of monster that everyone can see but me?

New Confession

As a little black girl my mother married an older white man who was a guard at Statesville Penitentiary in Joliet, Il. He was a p******** and predator. She didn’t know at the time who she married. He molested me between the ages of 7-9 years old. Fondled me and performed oral on me. Had me touch him. It changed me…like it altered my DNA. I’m almost 50 now and for DECADES I’ve actively had s***** encounters with white men mainly wanting oral only. It took me years of counseling to come to terms with liking oral and preferring it over any other s***** contact. I understand where it came from- the desire. I don’t hate that Im this way, its just a shame how I came upon this. I partially feel ‘normal’ and the other part feels understandably DAMAGED. I just don’t let it control me like prior years. That’s my true confession.

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From “Etobicoke Life Magazine”
March 1999

“Walmart Workers Busted”

“A number of Walmart workers have been charged with theft of over $10,000….investigators used video evidence….workers removed security tags from VCRs….

Charged is J— Jasenec, age 24 and ……”

1. Etobicoke Life Magazine has been defunct since 2002, but you can research it at the Toronto Reference Library

2. This took place at the Honeydale Walmart

3. F*** YOU Sister Marie Howorth!! You had no f***** right to ask me private questions about my father’s death! The school board takes MY SIDE and even APOLOGIZED!!!

4. F*** YOU Judy W!!! F*** YOU Yvonne K!!!! Cause my mamma taught me NOT to steal! I was always an honest Bay girl! 😉

5. My father verbally abused my mother and my life was happier without him. Stop attaching everything I do to his death.

6.F*** YOU ALL in number 4 for attacking my ability on having empathy for strangers who die young or suffer. Having empathy for a stranger is not a bad thing. You think your Jesus would agree with you or me on that one?