I have daddy issues.

He disowned me at birth, ignored me for 7 years and came back into
my life because he wanted to use my mothers again.

He has never had a home of his own and despite the fact that he is so highly skilled and intelligent, he has done f*** all with his life.

Instead he chooses to f*** whatever women he can charm into bed and
“live” in their homes for a few months at a time whilst always cheating on them.

He has not contributed positively emotionally or financially.
All he has done is bring unnecessary drama into my life.
It took him coming back and f****** around with my mothers and my
emotions before my mother began to almost hate him.
This was good and bad because although it hurt to find out my father
never cared about me, my mother got closure and has now finally been
able to move on from him.

She’s found real love since.

I don’t know if I’ll ever find love but I know how to spot an a*******.

He is now a cautionary tale to me.

I’m so glad he disowned me at birth because he’s an emotional terrorist
that could’ve kept my mother on the hook whilst also treating her with disrespect.
That would’ve been a bad example for me.

My sociopath of a father has also passed this sociopathic trait on to me somewhat.
I’d say I’m borderline but my mother balances me out.

I had no father figure.

Just one for a day would have been nice.

Whenever I hug any adult male, I sometimes pretend they’re
the dream father I made up in my head.