I need emotional help. I always feel anxious about little things. I dwell on seemingly insignificant details of a conversation or situation. I can’t get over small problems. I throw away opportunities that can better my life. I cry more often and more easily than before. My patience is low and my self confidence is lower. I’m always tired and unwilling to get out of bed. I can’t sleep and when I do, getting up is sometimes painful.I have violent and graphic thoughts all throughout the day and night, often about harming myself or others.I hardly have energy and when I do, it doesn’t last very long. I’m irritable and I can’t focus for very long. I also have a hard time remembering things and I constantly need reassurance.I’m so afraid of what is going to happen to me in the future, that I dread the next day.I have thought about suicide as a possible solution many times in the past. I feel guilty all the time, like I don’t deserve the life I live or my parents’ kindness. I feel worthless. I try to cover all of this up by being cheerful around my friends and family. I feel dead inside. I don’t know exactly what is wrong, but it keeps getting worse.