I guess the sad thing is I wish for good health because if I wasn’t blessed with it… and I suddenly had to go… and I put every person here… that I cared about… felt anything for… I don’t know that they would care. I am not so sure what I did to deserve my life, but I try to get better and better at life. I do try as weak and meager as my attempts seem. I don’t try to irritate people because I know how hard it is just to live already. They say that good things start with your thoughts. I’ll do my best to think good thoughts from now on. I’ll put faith in you for all you have to offer me, and offer what I can in return. I just want to mean more than I feel I do this day and time. I feel like some people knew this long, long before I did. I feel like I was misled. There are still some basic principles that I think help basic people that I don’t feel I know. Just understand if it was lust that set me back… that there are things that act on a man that are very powerful and natural. I’ve reformed myself… and I do things differently now. But I also hope that someone out there would believe me when I say I see the whole person. I think that most everyone is fascinating and has something to offer. I just want happiness before I die. I want to be loved by someone before I die.