[name],
I love you. There’s not a day you don’t cross my mind.
But why’d you have to leave me? I blamed myself for 10 soon to be 11 months.
I bullied myself everyday, looking in the mirror, picking out what I thought
looked wrong. My friends tell me I look just fine. So I started to pick at my
personality. I started to become someone that just wasn’t me… I wanted you
to see that I’ve changed… but was any of that the problem anyway?
I blamed my behavior— how immature I could be sometimes. My jealousy..
I never meant to come out as immature. I loved you, and I didn’t want to lose you.
I want you to understand that of I had the chance to be with you during those
times, I would have taken those chances. I never liked being away from you.
Distance made us stronger, as you said, but it definitely killed in the end.
You were my first love… I can never forget you.

—R