I always wanted to be this person who does no bad to anyone nor talks about other people. I always wanted to be a role model. I wanted (still do tho) everyone to love me and look up to me. But I have failed. I even failed in being a good person. Now I feel like all of my friends have left me and I just don’t know how to handle it. I feel dumb and unloved. I freaking hate life. And I feel so lost….