I got molested when I was about 3, from then on different relatives did the same. I was told I had a beautiful body, in my mind I wondered what about my face, they said I had bedroom eyes, s*** lips and a s*** smile.I begun to think of myself as a s***** being. About nine years old I began m*********** discovering p***. I have willingly slept with three men and only enjoyed one. I am not a lesbian I just need love and affection, I want to feel the unfading beauty of a gentle and quiet spirit which I have heard is great a with in GOD’S SIGHT. I want to be friends with a man who won’t see me s*******.. I have no male friends and I’m not close to my dad…what can I do????