Matter-of-fact, there is only one thing you have ever given a s*** about, and that’s looks and you’re too much of a coward to say it. I really don’t see my fault in telling a consistent story. I am at a loss in the whole thing. You expect me to crawl around and spew about how much I am self loathing and the only problem with that is it was never me that had hatred towards myself. You can imagine how wicked the double edge of a sword like that is- “you f****** hate yourself don’t you?” At the same time as believing that I am not good enough I will never be good enough etc etc. it’s the same s*** you pull. Its unbelievable treatment. Worse than r*** because it never ends. Thats who needs an island. F***. Cowards. Two-faced f****** cowards.