Today I realized, when I tried to dress nicely for something, just how much weight I’ve gained, and how fat and ugly I am. I feel like a teenager again, unable to stand being in my own skin, wanting to claw my way out of my disgusting body, hating myself and wondering how it got to this point. I feel so ashamed of myself. Bad thing is, I’m so very tired all the time, I don’t know how to even begin trying to lose the weight and keep it off.