joyce poorter said I needed to learn everything NEGATIVE … OK SO I HAVE AND THEN SHE SAID HHAHAHHAHHAHAAHA

i hate a lot of people who have been unchristian towards me. its made me less christian and strong vendetta towards people even strangers I want to lash out at and attack. I often want to bash men and fantasize all the time about bashing into family and men.

I REGULARLY SUFFER PANIC ATTACKS OVER FEAR OVER BEING REJECTED,NO FRIENDS AND FAILURES NEVER BEING ABLE ALLOWED TO MARRY OR TO HAVE CHILDREN THE NORMAL WAY …

NO ONE HAS EVER LOVED ME THE RIGHT WAY OR SHOWED ANY PROPER NORMAL AFFECTION TOWARDS ME, YOUNG MEN MY OWN AGE OR YOUNGER OR ROMANTIC INTEREST IN ME.. YOUNG MEN HAVE NEVER SHOWED AFFECTION TOWARDS ME, NO ONE HAS EVER GIVING ME ANYTHING I HAVE NEEDED AT THE TIME OF NEED. THEN THEY WONDER WHY I AM SUCH A ANGRY PERSON NOW, BUT I HAVE GIVEN TOO MUCH TO OTHERS AND NOT RECEIVED ENOUGH BACK IN RETURN.

NO ONE EVER DOES ANYTHING GOOD ENOUGH FOR ME… AND THEY EXPECT ME TO TOLERATE S*** QUALITY I GET OFFENDED OVER ….

joyce was pushing her value system on to me and not showing enough goodness towards my needs. she is a selfish woman with bad morals. joyce kept pushing her goals onto me and wanting to steal my goals as her own.

like when she wanted to have her tubes untied in 2001 to have twins… yet she chastised me for wanting a normal marriage at that time when i was more fertile… its like she could not see rational logic … WHY HAVE YOU DONE THIS TO ME DEVIL WOMAN??? PLEASE EXPLAIN YOUR SINS TOWARDS ME.

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