I don’t know where I fit in this world. My best friends have their sisters/brothers/parents. Other friends are really wealthy and travel the world and do things that require lots of money and time, which I don’t have, to do things together. They’re great friends and I wish I could afford to spend more time with them, but I can’t.
My mom and her boyfriend are drug abusing narcissists that use me for every penny they can guilt me into giving them. I give them nothing and they treat me like s*** until the time comes that they need something from me again.
I’m lonely and I feel incapable of doing the things I enjoy in life because I’m always trying to keep my head above water and I just can’t find a “family” of people who are like me, with an upbringing like mine, that actually understand I’m a nice person and a fun person and I get sad sometimes but it’s because of my past. I wish it was OK to be sad sometimes because life gets tough and having good friends and family is important when things are tough. But it seems my friends don’t understand my problems. They’re life experiences haven’t taught them that people like me need their support and understanding.
