I am so confused when it comes to what religion I want to be. I don’t even care. I never thought religion was a pick or choose thing. Meaning that if I pick one that means everyone else is living a lie.

Anyways,

I just wanted to note that I have been fasting during Ramadan, mostly for cultural reasons (like I always do). I almost broke my fast today because I saw no point in it religiously……

I tried to actually follow the way the ‘normal’ muslims behave during Ramadan so I could maybe get a feeling or somehow might start believing like everyone else. I thought it must be comforting to have a religion and a crowd of your own to follow.

However, (as weird as it may sound) I ended up m*********** and now I feel so annoyed with myself.

I tried to be normal for one day and I have already ‘sinned’ in the eyes of my parent’s religion.

I just want to be normal.

I did some research online and all it said was I was damned to hell if I didn’t regret what I did. I don’t regret it. Gah.

Damned to hell it is.

Even though it’s the second day of Ramadan.