This summer was supposed to be fun but now my friends are ignoring me. They dont have good excuses to not say hi to me now. They just plain arent there for me anymore. I hate it because I was so afraid of not being with my friends after we graduate, since I have had the same ones since first grade, but it turns out they dont care. I feel more alone than I ever have. Then I got my report card today and I failed a two classes. I am such a lost cause in school. I can fix it enough to graduate but nothing is interesting. I have tried everything and I just stink at everything. Havent eaten in two days. Falling into old dark patterns again. I am scared.