i fell in crushes then out then in love and out and in love and then out and now kind of out again with this guy who has been flirting but *** another *** and married to heaps of *** he keeps going back to now and then for the kids sake.

i cant live like this man. waiting … and it feels bad inside the more it goes on.

my one confession is I love looking at your face and pretending you are the man I want you to be, but tis a lie and you are not that man.

so I am in the process of making up a perfect man he is my invisible husband/lover/friend all things to me.

in between begging and waiting for you.

i just feel a mix of loving you and seeing the silly old goat you really are behind that false green monster lips of yours.

i love you you silly old goat.