11th grade year, i made the worst mistake of all. i met a 26 year old man off the internet at his house. he began kissing me and made me give him a h*******. he climbed on top of me, i said i wasn’t ready and tried to pull up my p****** but he wasnt listening, i let go because he was pulling hard. and he shoved himself inside of me. he took my virginity within 3 or 4 strokes, and then his baby started crying and he pulled out, got up, and demanded that i go make him a baby bottle, something ive never done in my life. i made him one and he gave it to the baby. Meanwhile, my insides were raw. i felt like he stuck a chainsaw up in there. he made me make another bottle and stuck it in the refridgerator. he then went into the shower. i put on all my clothes and i ran. out of the house to the bus stop. there wasnt a bus for hours. i didnt get back on my side of town until the end of the night. then i had to walk a few miles because i caught the wrong bus. i had a c** stain on my shirt, my insides were raw, and id been taken against my will. i was no longer pure anymore. and im so f****** disgusted with myself.