i am a 17 year old who does awful in school, is in a gang and smokes weed, cigarettes, take oxycotin, xanax, e, drink, and hooks up with a lot of girls, but then go home to my ma and help her with literally ANYTHING, and give my mom no problems. she has no idea of my drug use and i give no signs. But my older brother and younger sister constantly curse her out and give her s***, they are smarter than me and go to prestigious schools while i am in a dumbass high school. they blatantly disrespect elders while i go through HUGE lengths to respect elders, if i am walking down the street and see an elderly person, little kid, or non-threatening person i cross the street so i don’t scare them. i hate how everyone who sees me is afraid of me, i hold doors, smile at people to be pleasant, give money from selling cigarettes and soft drugs to other kids in my school to my mom and homeless people i see begging before buying the new video game or the new nikes. i NEVER hurt ANYone in my life, exept myself. i can’t stand the way my two siblings act like they are miserable when they constantly remind me of how they are SMARTER than me and always put me down for anything, i am italian american and proud, but never throw my heritage in people’s faces like the typical italian does. my father was murdered when i was 7 years old, my mom is a good woman who just met the wrong man. my brother and sister act like they are living the tough life when they have good friends eho don’t get the in trouble, my brother has a steady girlfriend who is beautiful and smart, she would do anything for him but he treats her like garbage, my sister allegedly wants to commit suicide because people kill a few cows to make burgers and steaks, she has always been that over dramatic, they both play piano and guitar and can sing, they always talk down on me because i listen to rap. but they din’t even look past, my favorite music is 1950′s doo wop. i am not suicidal ( thank god ), i go to church and donate, i just want that when i have kids they don’t live like i have.

I JUST DO ALL THIS TO GET LOTS OF ATTENTION