YOU WANT TO KNOW THE WORST PART OF ALL THIS … IS I WROTE IN MY DIARY IN 1986 ABOUT HOW I WANTED A BABY WITH A NICE BOY WHO WOULD BE MY PRINCE CHARMING… OR PRINCE WILLIAM ETC… AND SOMEONE JUST WENT OUT OF THERE WAY TO WRECK ALL MY DREAMS.

AND IT HURTS. ITS HURT FOR A LONG LONG TIME. I USED TO CRY ALL THE TIME IN 1996,97,98,2000 ETC ABOUT HOW MUCH I WANTED A MARRIAGE AND BABY TO A MAN I LOVED. I AM NOW 44 AND NEVER HAD A BOYFRIEND AND SOMETHING STRANGE IS GOING ON… I HAVE BEEN STALKED AND BREAK AND ENTERS IN THE HOUSE..

TOO MANY PEOPLE HAVE BEEN UP TO NO GOOD F****** UP MY LIFE OUT OF JEALOUSY.

ITS SO PAINFUL. I WANTED A GUY LIKE DAVO … OR SOME GUY WHO COULD BE LOVING AND WORK IN A GOOD CAREER… IT JUST FEELS LIKE I AM UNABLE TO HOLD ON TO THE ONE THING I REALLY WANT WHICH IS A MAN AND MARRIAGE OF MY OWN WHO I LOVE… LET ALONE A CAREER.

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