i fantasise about my teacher every time i m*********, he’s not even that hot
I can’t change. I’ve tried to change for the better but the circumstances around me have kept me the same person for years. Why should I reduce screen time if I have nothing else to do? Why should I go out with friends if it’s impossible to get anywhere without a car? Why should I be nicer if nobody tries to be nicer? People my age have done better than me and have done greater things that I have, but I’m still the same person I was years ago.
While at Fiserv, I find myself frequently daydreaming throughout the day. I fantasize about talking a nice, euphoric walk to my car as I realize those are my final moments of suffering. I get in, close the door and turn on the generator and gently fall into a permanent sleep…