I’m so depressed and feel trapped. Thank god I don’t feel suicidal though. Becauses it’s not worth killing yourself simply because you need to wait a little while to get the hell out of where you are, well maybe in my case. Nobody understands or knows what’s going on. They just see a facade and fake smiles. I hate how people are silently judging me around this neighborhood. They say hi to my parent but they don’t say anything to me. All they do is stare and then ignore. You can’t even be f****** cordial and you live right down the hall from me ?!?. I hate walking past you and your kids. You’re just raging them to be as small minded and just as ignorant as you are and that’s a damn shame. I’ve never liked this neighborhood. I’ve been forced to live here because I had nowhere else to go. The men treat women likes pieces of meat. I can’t stand how they stare at me from their passing vehicles. I can’t stand the catcalls and beeps. It makes me want to vomit and then throw it at your goofy looking faces. I will never respond to “Yo”. Where the duck does it say that that’s how you’re suppose to talk to a women ? A “ratchet guy” handbook.? I don’t respond to that because I have a lot of self respect and dignity. Desperate f****** dogs. You have no idea how to talk to women. I can’t stand looking at all these girls around here who look like they are in my age group. Most of them have 6 kids. My god. And I hate seeing girls approached while carrying strollers by a pack of desperate guys. It’s sick and speaks volumes. I hate walking past a group of guys. They always say something and when you don’t respond to them they harass you and call you names. So disrespectful. Why can’t you just let me go and move onto some other chick ? Why are you so f****** aggressive ? I’m not interested, damn. I just feel disgusted by men around here, I would never date any other them.
