My dad fired didn’t hire someone because he was a gay atheist. My dad thinks atheist snd gays don’t deserve to live. He absolutely despises them. We go to church every Sunday, and our family is made up of super strong Christians. Except me. I’m a lesbian atheist. I was raised such a strong Christian.. What happened? This is a really confusing time in my life right now. After cutting and anorexia.. I thought I was okay. I’m 95% sure I have depression. Maybe anxiety. I had a panic attack one night in my room. I was rolling on the ground screaming (I was home alone) and I wanted to cut so badly but I couldn’t because I couldn’t get up. When I finished, I made twelve cuts on my arm. I don’t want to be sad anymore… But the only anesthetic that makes me feel anything kills inside.