Dear God, I don’t come here seeking anyone’s attention but yours. I wonder if I ask for forgiveness every day for the longest time if you would actually forgive me, if you would honor my hard work. I’ve turned it around and seen the light of day. I just wonder if I could be redeemed. I hope that is what I am working towards. I’m sorry for my addictions. I cannot put what they are because I am too ashamed. I wonder… if I could be pure again. I wonder if she understands that’s all we have and why I bothered saying it. I don’t care if I need to be alone in this. I… am sorry for hurting my family. Sorry for not standing up for myself in such a crazy, hectic world now. All these people on here really want is a little relief. Some pray for it. Some work for it. I’ll work for You. I just can’t be weak anymore. It’s not me. It’s in Your name I pray. I fight each day to do the right thing. Amen.