I just want to get my goals come true and it makes me feel bad when i think i am not doing anything to achieve them. I want to get recluited by this university and i wanted to make a video and send it to them. But it is a little bit hard because i don’t practice too often and i need somebody to play with and another person to hold the camera. I tried it and i told my brother to film and my dad to play with me but that day i dint got exactly what i wanted to do. My dad didn’t let me do things my way (as always). I wanted to just record, just record, something to start. But he started compleining “you shouldnt donit that way….. You should practice first….” i didn’t even explained what i had in mind and i didn’t do it for one reason, i knew he would interrumpt me and say whatever the f*** he wanted to say…. I f****** hate that, but he is not like that with his f****** friends… If afriend of him said “the sky is green” he would said “well… I am not sure about that, in my opinion is blue” without arguining but if i say it he would respond “NO, is blue, it’s! Blue!” You know what?? F*** YOU! If i had other people to film this video i wouldnt even tell you nothing! Jerk! Let me do MY things in MY WAY! For god sake why do yu have to f****** criticize everything f****** jerk?? I just want to make my video and it would be great if you just shutted your f****** mouth and listen. I was mad about it now because i just remembered this. Edrybody is sleeping in my house and i wish i could be more intelligent and have more emotional intelligence and not let random thougts get me like this. Calm down and look other ways maybe?