Can’t I just tell you how much I love you? Even if it’s in vain… I mean I know it is… but then why does my heart still tell me you’re it? It isn’t like I haven’t been hurt before. I have. It s****. Maybe I just feel this for you because you haven’t let me down yet, in which case I should probably let you go forever on the hope that it is even possible that you felt anything for me… I know you did I am just not sure what. Am I a romantic friend? A brother? An old flame? To me… you are… my equal. My parallel. I don’t have to validate that any further but yes it is one hell of a chemical reaction when we converse… and when I get to send you love. Hard to turn away from that and turn my back. Just hope you understand. What a strange thing but I wouldn’t change anything. I should give you a rest though. You and me both. Obviously you can pick me up whenever… I am not so sure anyone should ever warrant that type of access to my heart and my emotions. I dont know. Clearly you dont have that for me so i guess i talked myself out of it. I had love for you that would make angels jealous. I dont know why. Just need to pour it out somewhere. I guess. Sorry. I’m done. I will get over it. Its time i started moving on though. I think it’d be wise.